Sunday, July 7, 2013

A Tropical Depression



Friends Dottie West, June Carter Cash and Loretta Lynn recalled Cline telling them during 1963 that she felt a sense of impending doom and did not intend to live much longer.





I think you five-0.





UNCLE ACID. Basic Concepts in Brainwashing.





Man is not at home in the universe, despite all the efforts of philosophers and metaphysicians to provide a soothing syrup. Thought is still a narcotic. The deepest question is why. And it is a forbidden one. The very asking is in the nature of cosmic sabotage. And the penalty is- the afflictions of Job.





Why do I sense hostility on your part? She asks softly, then sips her wine.

                Maybe because I'm hostile! He spits out.





You are being a lunatic. She says, shaking her head, now looking over the wine list.

                     Goddammit. What do you mean, being? I say. I fucking am one.





Never once had they opened the door which leads to the soul; never once did they dream of taking a blind leap into the dark. After dinner the dishes were promptly washed and put in the closet; after the paper was read it was neatly folded and laid on a shelf; after the clothes were washed they were ironed and folded and then tucked away in the drawers. Everything was for tomorrow, but tomorrow never came. The present was only a bridge and on this bridge they are still groaning, as the world groans, and not one idiot ever thinks of blowing up the bridge. 





Most of what my neighbors call good, I am profoundly convinced is evil.





It took me quite a while to realize that the real deal is to be able to be enough of a person on your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you.       -SRV





Fucking quotable. Hence all of this. Boob.





Run. With. The. Pack.





...because they were more fun than Adam.





Too many people. They're asking questions, they're at every show. They're right in front of me, and right below. Too many fucking people. 





Combating the 'system' is nonsense. There is only one aim in life and that is to live it. In America it has become impossible, except for a few lucky or wise people, to live one's own life; consequently the poets and the artists tend to move to the fringes of society. We lead the lives of prisoners while we boast about free speech, free press, and free religion, none of which we actually do enjoy in full. 





I recall distinctly how I enjoyed my suffering. It was like taking a cub to bed with you. Once in a while he clawed you- and then you really were frightened. Ordinarily you had no fear- you could always turn him loose, or chop his head off. 





There are people who cannot resist the desire to get into a cage with wild beasts and be mangled. They go in even without revolver or whip. Fear makes them fearless. 





People are like lice- they get under your skin and bury themselves there. You scratch and scratch until the blood comes, but you can't get permanently deloused. Everywhere I go people are making a mess of their lives. Everyone has his private tragedy. It's in the blood now- misfortune, ennui, grief, suicide. The atmosphere is saturated with disaster, frustration, futility. Scratch and scratch- until there's no skin left...I want the whole world to be out of whack, I want everyone to scratch himself to death. 



Thursday, June 20, 2013

Impalers.









It's at the Goodman Factory, on 11th and Ella. They manufacture furnaces and air conditioners for mass consumption. The factory operates around-the-clock.

There's a spot there. It's a bank-to-ledge, skatepark-grade smooth, and it is -in my opinion- the best skate spot in the Heights. I skated it on Monday.

So I'm at it for fifteen minutes or so, and then I decide to roll under a tree and hang out for a minute. Get out of the sun.

All of a sudden there's a BOOMING voice calling from above me. HEY! HEY KID! YOU CAN'T DO THAT HEEEEEERE!

  I deduce, in the span of one-mississippi, that:

A) it is a security guard, three stories up.
B) and that I'm gonna have some fun with him.


GOD?! I yell. GOD, it's Kevin! IS THAT YOU, LORD?!

He doesn't play along at all.

NO! He hollers. AND YOU CAN'T SKATEBOARD HERE! YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!

So I yell 'fine, I'm going', and I go.


I've skated that spot after work every day this week. And every time, after fifteen minutes or so, the same portly security guard comes waddling down the garage ramp. From three stories up. That's why I get fifteen uninterrupted minutes.

Kid, it's you again! I told you, you can't skateboard here. You gotta go!

Oh. Tsup, Lord. Yeah it's just me... but then, you knew that already! Yeah, I was just leaving.



As long as he doesn't get fed up and call some real cops, I see no reason why we can't keep this up for a while. It's symbiotic, really. I get to skate for just the right amount of time, and he gets what I have to assume is his only exercise for the day. Win-win. People helping people.



Man is a communal creature. Time is for sharing. I'll grow on you if you grow on me.

Monday, June 17, 2013

Never // Always

I'm just a kid from the suburbs. I've wanted for nothing. I've been given everything. These are some of the things I have done.

-Lied.
-Cheated.
-Stolen.
-Made my parents ashamed.
-Made my parents proud.
-Drank to excess.
-Smoked the devil's lettuce.
-Defaced property.
-Defaced myself.
-Made another person bleed.
-Been made to bleed by another person.
-Doubted the existence of God.
-Questioned the purpose of religion.
-Questioned the purpose of people in general.
-Hurt people I care about. 
-Failed people I care about.
-Tried to be a good son.
-Tried to be a good brother.
-Tried to be a good friend.


I'm just a kid from the suburbs. I've wanted for nothing. I've been given everything. These are some of the things I have not done.

-Gone to bed hungry.
-Slept on the street.
-Not had clothes on my back.
-Stuck a needle in my body.
-Been addicted.
-Been abused.
-Had a (real) weapon pulled on me.
-Been made to do anything I didn't want to do.
-Not had money.
-Not had options.
-Felt neglected.
-Felt unloved.

I'm just a kid from the suburbs.





My nose bleeds like my father's did.
My nose bleeds like my father's did. 

I'll never be pure.
I'll never be pure. 
I'll never be pure.
I'll never be pure.

I'll always be loved. 
I'll always be loved.
I'll always be loved.
I'll always be loved.

I'll never be pure. 
I'll never be pure.
I'll never be pure.
I'll never be pure. 

I'll always be loved.

Monday, June 10, 2013

Black Jeans, Black T-Shirt







Always thought that action was the goal
I don't know if the action's gotten old

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

David



...but five minutes later he stopped me and asked me if I believed in God. 

"No," I told him.

"Why?"

I thought for a second. "Because I have hair on my back, and lots of other people, people who kill and rob and make life miserable, don't. A real God wouldn't let that happen."

Heights Proper



Yeah, they do. Not just a Catholic problem.






Guinea fowl, loose in the streets. Get as close as you like- the only thing they'll ever run from is a dog.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Mackerelmore



Turns out, as a result of the endless generosity of my fwends, I was able to attend Summer Fest after all. Thanks Morgan and John, thanks Jon, and thanks so much, Richie!



So Macklemore goes on, and he's thrift-store shopping and everything, and this lady is all, "I can't see him!"

And I'm all, "Ummm, I've got shoulders, and none of my friends are down to get up there..."

And she's all, "Dude, I'm 6' 1". You sure about this?"

And I'm like, "Yup. Wanna shoot hoops later?"



Poor decision. We made it through one song. I'm not sure my body has ever poured out more sweat within the span of a minute-and a-half.

 Then there was some miscommunication about how I was to be compensated for my efforts. She said she didn't kiss on the first date. I told her I didn't either- when I said she could tag me on the cheek, I meant with her fist. 'Cause I had said something that offended her a little. Again, a miscommunication.


Ultimately, she tried to pay me with weed.

I jumped back, fucking appalled.

"Look, lady!", I yelled. Well, yelled and cried. I was crying by then. "Do you know what this is?! This is...marijuana! Do you know where we are?! A FRIGGING MUSIC FESTIVAL! If you think I came here to get drunk and smoke weed...WELL! You been following me around, or what?!"



And that's how it happened, Mom. People these days. Fuck. Frick, too.






Propers due: You took a great photo, Kimberly. Thanks again!